A personal notebook
Thoughts, notes, and ideas.
Writing about whatever I’m trying to understand.
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When Hope Dies, Meaning is What’s Left
A new level of maturity has fallen over me like a gray veil. I thought it was depression. But now I’ve come to understand that it’s a new realization of reality. I’ve been deeply…
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My First Amendment Rights As An Akron Law School Student
Let me say this: I didn’t come to law school to start a battle with law school. I have bigger fish to fry. But this system is just as corrupt and oppressive as any…
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I’m Back
A younger friend of mine from law school came up to me last night after our criminal law class and said, “I bet you were cool back in the ’80s.” (A. I was 10…
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What Happens When You Can’t Take It Any More?
I can’t recall a time in my life when I have thought about suicide more often, and when the fantasies were more realistic. It was getting to the point that I seriously thought I…
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Why Am I Doing This to Myself?
I’m having luck letting go of my anger and ego, somewhat. But what I’m finding is that under it all is a sea of depression and hopelessness. Hopelessness has always been a main character…
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The Shame of Existence
Yesterday, Rocky and I were talking about cleaning the house. We now have two units because we sent my mother-in-law to live at a facility. We were just having fun, and she said that…
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Hostile Architecture and Murderous Rage
I study art. I’m aware of the importance of Michelangelo’s Piata. Is brutalist architecture cool or gross? Which decade of Picasso’s life is his most important? Frank Gehry just died. Were his blindingly shiny…
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Love Is Stronger Than Control
The City of Akron just barricaded the little road between Grace Park and Haven of Rest. That’s where a lot of us bring food and supplies to our houseless neighbors.They closed it because people…
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The Season For War
I deeply believe this: A Time for Everything 1There is a time for everything,and a season for every activity under the heavens:2a time to be born and a time to die,a time to plant…
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The Wrong Answer to Neglect: Why Forced Institutionalization Won’t Solve Homelessness
The neglect of our mentally ill, severely addicted, and extremely poor neighbors is one of the greatest moral failures of our time. In cities across the United States, people in crisis are left to…
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Feudalism is Inevitable. American Democracy is Dead
I wish I had more time to write about this. But my life is wonderfully intense and exciting right now. This all became crystal clear when I watched this interview of Michigan Democrat Senator…
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How AI Changed My Life at 53: My Journey from Rome’s Colosseum to Building RomaLume
A Life-Changing Trip to Italy I just returned from what might have been the greatest trip of my life. Standing before the magnificent Colosseum in Rome, I felt something profound shift within me. This…