One of the reasons I love chaos and intense situations is because everything becomes so clear to me.
The next step is as clear as day. So you just do that step and then the next step presents itself.
I never feel more alive and useful than when I'm in chaos.
Getting to help Spring Garden Waldorf School move from a completely non digital school to a school of complete remote learning this year due to Coronavirus was exhilarating, fun and most importantly, useful.
I constantly am searching for my highest and best use. I have such a short time here on Earth I want so badly to make the most of it.
But here I am in a time of internal peace and comfort and I'm almost totally lost. Peace makes me feel adrift.
I don't know which direction to take from one day to the next. I don't know what is most important. Because nothing is urgent nothing feels particularly important. That, of course, is ridiculous.
I've been thinking about community organizing.
I truly believe that the way the machine wins is to keep us separated. "Divide and Conquer" is such an effective strategy.
Solidarity is the path to power.
For example, I am constantly trying to find common ground with Trump supporters. Their needs are exactly the same as the black person's needs: a system that doesn't oppress them and access to a good job, affordable housing, food and healthcare.
Poor white people with no college education have more in common with minorities of color than they are even comfortable considering. So they stay at each other's throats.
Community organizing. I need to give that some more considering.